My resolve is in a twizzle!

Oh, Chicken fat--

Well, I stepped on the scale again this morning to find that my weight is slowly creeping up right now. I swear, ever since girl scout cookie time, I have found my resolve more easily wavering at the sight of treats. It's bad--I have a horrible sweet tooth--HORRIBLE! If it has sugar, carmel, chocolate or any of the other members of the fun food group I'm in. It does not help that this last week I've eaten out more times than I have in the whole three months on WW.

I know why my resolve is down....I read an article a few weeks back about how most people fizzle on their diets at 12 weeks, or there about. I'm in the middle of week 12--fizzle, fizzle, toil and drizzle. oh look my resolve is in a twizzle!

I need to really sit down and re-commit myself to this program, and really sit down and plan out my food for the whole day, so that I don't snack with out purpouse and that I don't just put things into my mouth like a 2 year old. This is where I get frustrated, I love to eat, and I've always struggled with my weight and my cravings and urges. I need to re-assert myself over them and get back into control. Sometimes, though, this is easier said than done. It's also hard when the scale does not go down as fast as I think it should.

Some times too I feel that I am alone in my struggle with my weight. My husband supports me, but I wish I had someone here, near me, who I could physically go to for support during the day. WW meetings are not it, I know they are not for me, even though I am commited to the program. It always seems that with my friends they unload on me, not the other way around.

So, here it is: for the next 2 1/2 weeks, till I go to Utah, I am going to excercise every day but Sunday, I am going to portion my meals out carfully and avoid things that are high in calores and fats, I am going to snack smart and not reach for the first thing I can find when I am hungry and I am going to make this a matter of prayer--because that's the only way I'm getting thru it in one piece.

Hopefully with this the twizzle will fizzle.